No shame in it.
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Its omnipresence was still daunting.
Even as its grip slackened, the Greater Will still dominated the land. The golden light of the Erdtree illuminated Limgrave day and night. Turn your back to it, and you would see its children, mere seedlings that towered over all but their progenitor. Cast your eyes down, and you would see a Tree Sentinel patrolling astride his horse. Twice the size of a lowborn knight, clad all in gilt finery.
There was scarcely a tree in the Lands Between without a golden cast to its leaves. Blessed with Grace-given life, said the Golden Order. Autumnal, said others. The end of a millennial season.
It was little wonder that the Tarnished were still captivated. Without a more intimate knowledge of the Lands Between, they saw only the Erdtree's radiance, not the bare and dying branches. They flocked toward it like moths.
What fools they were. Intelligent, some of them, but fools all the same. Generations of hatred and scorn upheld by the Two Fingers, and now they answered the call to service? How could one be so delusional as to think the Golden Order would truly welcome them home with love?
No. They were being used, and he felt no shame in doing the same. Those who stayed loyal were fitting sacrifice, providing the materials he needed to guide the doubting toward truth.
And then there were the particularly hapless. That last girl and her companions, good heavens. He'd almost wanted to follow them, just to spectate. But he had his calling to attend to. Tarnished sailing from the west found the beaches of Limgrave the only place to row ashore, and they all passed by the statue-topped monument of the Fringefolk Hero's Grave. He had his pick of them all here, and sent them off toward the brooding walls of Stormveil Castle. Lords, vassals, rich and wretched alike. They came to take the measure of the hills beyond, and to rest at its Site of Grace.
The pallid little thing swirled and danced, leaving uncomfortably moving afterimages on the eyes if one stared too long. But it was warm enough at night to almost render a fire superfluous, and it warded off the beasts that stalked and soared over the lowlands to the south. Even the Tree Guardian kept a respectful distance, the brainlessly devout pillock.
After years of bloody toil in war, sleeping in the dirt beside a symbol of everything he rejected wasn't that much of a hardship. Though on nights when rain blew up from the Weeping Lands or the sea air took on a particular chill, he was forced to retreat into the entrance to the grave itself. There were the occasional noises deep below, the senile mutterings of deathless nobility trapped in the subterranean graveyard. None of them had yet figured out how to operate the lift, and he doubted any of them would.
He couldn't decide if they were the unlucky ones, or if that honor went to the desiccated starveling pinned to a martyr's bough outside on the hill. It barely ever lifted its head, and fortunately, it hadn't voiced an opinion about anything in days. He was no longer a merciful and compassionate war surgeon, but if that thing interrupted his speech to a Tarnished again, he'd find that old mercy within himself and tear it to pieces. Perhaps he'd do it anyway, save him the trouble later.
Ah, no. That would have to wait. He could hear something coming.
Even as its grip slackened, the Greater Will still dominated the land. The golden light of the Erdtree illuminated Limgrave day and night. Turn your back to it, and you would see its children, mere seedlings that towered over all but their progenitor. Cast your eyes down, and you would see a Tree Sentinel patrolling astride his horse. Twice the size of a lowborn knight, clad all in gilt finery.
There was scarcely a tree in the Lands Between without a golden cast to its leaves. Blessed with Grace-given life, said the Golden Order. Autumnal, said others. The end of a millennial season.
It was little wonder that the Tarnished were still captivated. Without a more intimate knowledge of the Lands Between, they saw only the Erdtree's radiance, not the bare and dying branches. They flocked toward it like moths.
What fools they were. Intelligent, some of them, but fools all the same. Generations of hatred and scorn upheld by the Two Fingers, and now they answered the call to service? How could one be so delusional as to think the Golden Order would truly welcome them home with love?
No. They were being used, and he felt no shame in doing the same. Those who stayed loyal were fitting sacrifice, providing the materials he needed to guide the doubting toward truth.
And then there were the particularly hapless. That last girl and her companions, good heavens. He'd almost wanted to follow them, just to spectate. But he had his calling to attend to. Tarnished sailing from the west found the beaches of Limgrave the only place to row ashore, and they all passed by the statue-topped monument of the Fringefolk Hero's Grave. He had his pick of them all here, and sent them off toward the brooding walls of Stormveil Castle. Lords, vassals, rich and wretched alike. They came to take the measure of the hills beyond, and to rest at its Site of Grace.
The pallid little thing swirled and danced, leaving uncomfortably moving afterimages on the eyes if one stared too long. But it was warm enough at night to almost render a fire superfluous, and it warded off the beasts that stalked and soared over the lowlands to the south. Even the Tree Guardian kept a respectful distance, the brainlessly devout pillock.
After years of bloody toil in war, sleeping in the dirt beside a symbol of everything he rejected wasn't that much of a hardship. Though on nights when rain blew up from the Weeping Lands or the sea air took on a particular chill, he was forced to retreat into the entrance to the grave itself. There were the occasional noises deep below, the senile mutterings of deathless nobility trapped in the subterranean graveyard. None of them had yet figured out how to operate the lift, and he doubted any of them would.
He couldn't decide if they were the unlucky ones, or if that honor went to the desiccated starveling pinned to a martyr's bough outside on the hill. It barely ever lifted its head, and fortunately, it hadn't voiced an opinion about anything in days. He was no longer a merciful and compassionate war surgeon, but if that thing interrupted his speech to a Tarnished again, he'd find that old mercy within himself and tear it to pieces. Perhaps he'd do it anyway, save him the trouble later.
Ah, no. That would have to wait. He could hear something coming.
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Date: 2023-01-03 03:31 am (UTC)"I'll see if that merchant has a notebook or something. That way I can give you an idea of what my warframe looks like next time I run into you." However long that might be. She could always slip back this way and see if he was around but, again, that risked her gear slipping away.
She got to her feet with a stretch, adjusting her amp just in case. "I'll get out of your way. Thanks again."
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Date: 2023-01-03 06:04 am (UTC)"One last thing." He returned to his tone of instruction, for this was a part of his duties he'd neglected to complete for Ayatan. "Should you see an arc of golden light extending from Grace such as this," he gestured to the little mote, "then you behold the Guidance of Grace. A path for a Tarnished to follow. If not? Then the Greater Will has already decided you do not serve its purpose."
His disdain was fairly evident, but only implied by tone and restrained words. "Few see it now, but all claim to, lest they be taken as fallen from favor."
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Date: 2023-01-03 07:10 am (UTC)"Even if I did, you told me enough to know that the Greater Will and I wouldn't see eye to eye. Not sure I'd want to serve their purpose."
They'd definitely get along with their shared disdain. How quickly could the Greater Will just abandon someone who stuck a toe out of line? Had they before?
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Date: 2023-01-03 02:24 pm (UTC)And her response was so very heartening. "Then may that intuition serve you well," oh, this gave him more confidence in his decision. "We'll meet again soon enough."
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Date: 2023-01-03 06:11 pm (UTC)"Take care." Did he need to hear that? Probably not but she wasn't going to risk her only ally here.
With that though, she took a moment to stretch again before heading towards the church, cautious of the Sentinel and slipping seamlessly into the Void once she was close enough.
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Date: 2023-01-03 06:50 pm (UTC)And now he was left alone, with the shimmering Grace. Did it know anything of them, he wondered. Of what he did. The little sprites were everywhere, even within the holy mausoleum. One couldn't be rid of them.
Not yet, at least. Oh, he longed for the day when the lands would be renewed. It would be soon.
And every knight that spilled blood in service to the Mohgwyn Dynasty might hasten its arrival.
He turned to the east and knelt, the brand upon his forehead flaring with burning heat. His course was set. Oh, it would be agony. But it was required of him now. And that made any pain a sweetness, to be joyfully accepted.
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Date: 2023-01-03 07:53 pm (UTC)So reaching the church and trading with Kalé, making sure she got a notebook to sketch out what her warframe looked like, and a back to carry her things in. The more she worked her way around, it became easier to remember how her body worked compared to a warframe. So sneaking and killing some of the knights, taking a sword, became much easier as well. Quick stabs to major arteries or slitting throats were her preferred methods for the moment.
If Varré had any trouble finding her, following the calculated carnage would help. AT least until nightfall, when he had a much better chance of finding her bloodied and hiding out instead.
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Date: 2023-01-03 08:48 pm (UTC)The flame was still within him now. Every heartbeat was cowed by it, every vein scoured and raw. He'd voice to scream again now, but he would not. The pain mixed now with blessed surety of purpose, with a wide-eyed certainty, his faith was rewarded.
And the gifts he'd been granted must be shared.
He followed the death she'd left among Godrick's soldiers, their blood providing an easy trail to follow. The cuts on their bodies were as clean and calculated as a surgeon's mercy. Oh, he'd had a good feeling about this one, and it was always so gratifying to be right.
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Date: 2023-01-03 11:47 pm (UTC)After running into the Night's Cavalry though, she missed her weapons more than ever. Even just one of her swords would make a difference, she thought. And she couldn't help but stay on edge, hoping for a quick sunrise and that it left well enough alone like an eidolon on Cetus.
Her back was still bleeding from the flail and she was sure a couple ribs were broken, but the sound of someone approaching had her on her feet anyway, brandishing her knife.
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Date: 2023-01-04 02:01 am (UTC)But then, the bouquet he could smell on the wind, oh! It was like nothing he had ever known before. That must be her.
The trail left the road, and he followed it, kneeling to examine the stains upon the dirt, to discern the subtleties of its scent, to pluck a bloodstained leaf from the ground and tilt his mask up just enough to taste it.
It seemed almost to glimmer upon the tongue. Oh, he had made the right choice. Her blood already held a spark of something special within it. It could only be improved by the gift of nobility.
The scent of it grew ever thicker as he continued on, and a little twist of worry wormed its way into his flesh. There wasn't enough spilled to be fatal, but what else had been done to her? How hurt was she?
Not so hurt that she couldn't respond to his approach, with the wary stance of a feral, cornered thing. And yet-- "Your wounds! Poor thing, let me see to them. Quickly now."
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Date: 2023-01-04 03:11 am (UTC)"And here I said I'd avoid making work for you." There was a soft chuckle that she immediately regretted, letting herself flop back for a moment and wonder how he'd found her. She'd left some bodies along her path but she hadn't realized the trail was so discernible. Something to work on in the future.
Her shirt was already torn up so it wouldn't have been hard to poke and see though, at that point, she might as well scrap it and find someone who could craft leather.
"Think I cracked a rib or two."
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Date: 2023-01-04 06:28 am (UTC)He almost laughed, exhaustion and mania at war with each other. "I've appointed myself this task, and I'll see it done. here," he reaches into one of the pouches on his belt, retrieving a small packet of rose-infused boluses. "Swallow these. It will stop the bleeding."
He knelt to examine her back, teeth clenched behind the mask as the movement sent a shock up his spine. The wounds weren't clean, and pieces of her shirt were stuck to them. And something else lurked beneath the leather, though he couldn't yet tell what.
His skills were needed, then. "You'll need these cleaned before they can be healed."
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Date: 2023-01-04 09:03 am (UTC)"S'it that bad?" She didn't really need to ask but it was an odd comfort before she started undoing all the fastenings for her shirt. There was definite muscle tone under it but more noticeable, of course, was the blood and ink black tendrils that surrounded a relatively new scar.
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Date: 2023-01-04 01:05 pm (UTC)"You will heal," he asserted, busying himself with the supplies he'd need, removing the pouch from his belt, so it could serve as a relatively clean, makeshift stand for the tools. "And the pain will ennoble you further."
Yet as she removed the tattered shirt, he... he had no notion of what he saw there. A grand and disfiguring scar, and... "What happened to you, dear one?" He cautiously touched near the mark, fingertips just shy of its edge.
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Date: 2023-01-04 05:40 pm (UTC)"Old enemy stole my sword and killed me. Or tried to. Way he put it, he was sending me back to hell." He'd get his for that one, but then his words really caught her. No one had really called her 'dear' in more than an age. It left a warm feeling in her chest that she tried to shove aside.
"Don't worry too much about hurting me. I'm tougher than I look." Even if she was still immature in a lot of ways. Like swallowing the boluses like a child eating vegetables.
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Date: 2023-01-04 06:32 pm (UTC)His attention turned back to her latest injuries. He had rose oil. Sacred and potent in its concentration, but it seemed appropriate now.
"What a good soldier you must have been." His voice sounded rather distant. Most of his patients never kept their composure. Nor, admittedly, had he given them such care. That simply wasn't the way of a war surgeon.
He unstopped the vial and poured a few careful drops onto a tuft of clean, unspun rowa cotton. It instantly filled the air with the scent of roses.
Then he began his work, carefully spreading the oil over the wounds. The touch would hurt, he knew that. "This will inspire the wounds to reject impurities, and command the flesh to new life." The cotton was already stained so red with her unique blood. He would have to save these...
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Date: 2023-01-04 09:20 pm (UTC)The touch of the cotton and rose oil to her back earned a soft hiss but she clenched her teeth against it.
A distraction, that was all she needed to draw her mind from the sting. And his care provided the perfect thing to latch onto.
"What is that? I never smelled anything like it before."
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Date: 2023-01-04 09:43 pm (UTC)"They've no roses in your homeland?" Truly? "What a tragedy. Beautiful things, the perfumers used to use these oils in their trade." In incense or poisons, they always smelled so sweet.
"There are many varieties, but these grow where blood's been spilled in abundance." The two scents blended so wonderfully together, even now. "Each place of slaughter in time becomes a garden, full of such beautiful flowers, protected by an armament of thorns."
His love for them is effusive, and why shouldn't it be? "They are a treasure, and a blessing." And they had become the sign of his devotion in turn.
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Date: 2023-01-04 10:33 pm (UTC)"Turning tragedy into beauty, I can appreciate that. It's poetic." And, what she could remember from some of her lessons, blood and rot left behind on battlefields were sometimes good for growth. For recovery.
It made her wish they were somewhere in the origin system. Somewhere safe, that wouldn't be trampled by soldiers or scavengers. They seemed like something that belonged in the Silver Grove or somewhere like it. Or the gardens of the Zariman, before the void jump.
"Wish they had them back home. Then again, I guess if they did grow there, we'd have left a hell of a garden behind when the Orokin fell."
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Date: 2023-01-04 10:52 pm (UTC)"There are only a few places they truly flourish now. The wars left such beautiful scars, but..." He sighs. Trying to remember how long it's been is folly. History itself is dead here.
"The Lords of these lands brought the land to such exhaustion, none have the strength to take up arms and march again." The surgeons had been so lucky. To think that they might have been hollowed out as the rest of the lands had been. Those that survived the blood were now so blessed.
"You have not seemed surprised by the state of this place." Some were, when they arrived. Affronted, even. "Are your lands much the same, then?"
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Date: 2023-01-04 11:19 pm (UTC)"Some of them, yeah. They were so used to their lavish lifestyles that they ruined our whole system. It's how I got so screwed up, we were meant to colonize a new system for them."
The Sentients were menaces but they weren't wrong about the Orokin. They really would have just ruined Tau as well. And they gave the Tenno the opportunity to shine, gave them the chance to topple the empire...
He didn't need to know that though, she didn't want to risk losing her only ally because of some well-earned vengeance.
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Date: 2023-01-04 11:41 pm (UTC)Those that fell beyond their reach bowed to Caria instead, mining glintstone for their sorcerer-nobles. The demigods had benefited from the fiction that they were any different from their mortal courtiers, but who set the example?
"Then you can understand why this land needs a new dynasty. One that loves as the old did not." One that they would both hasten, he was sure of this now.
"Here. Drink this. Now that your wounds are clean, this can heal the worst of them." He only had enough for one draught, insufficient to fully heal and purge the body. The Erdtree's dregs cared not whether new flesh closed over muck, and left wounds to fester.
"When day breaks and the Night's Cavalry retreats, we can make for a site of grace, and heal the rest."
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Date: 2023-01-05 12:16 am (UTC)There was a long moment of silence as she considered that, tried to ignore her own fondness for the idea. Would the Tenno have rebelled if the Orokin had even an ounce of care for people?
She took the draught with a wary look, considering and noting how much there was.
“Won’t you need it? I’m no surgeon, just a soldier. I can do field wraps but that’s it.” For when the non-Tenno were injured in the war.
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Date: 2023-01-05 01:09 am (UTC)"Even the Golden Order has realized it had spurned its own salvation, when Marika banished the Tarnished from the Lands Between. But they still believe that they shall rise again."
He still tread along the edge of truth. It would be improper to speak more, until she'd proven herself. But hadn't her spirit proved so much already? "Perhaps they are right. But if there is a better way, why not see it done?"
As to the matters at hand, well. "Oh, you needn't worry. It will be refilled. And I've no need of it." Though the hoarseness was beginning to creep back into his voice. He'd screamed so, his voice would need time to heal.
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Date: 2023-01-05 04:12 am (UTC)“Long as we can refill it.” Judging a book by its cover was the last thing she wanted to do with him but she still couldn’t shake her instinct to keep others safe.
Again, a cautious look at the liquid and a brief sniff to be sure it wasn’t some kind of kuva, and then downed it.
“If we’re stuck here the rest of the night, I can keep watch. Otherwise I might end up questioning you about this world.”
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